Beach Yoga Lesson 1: Find Stability When Something Is Slipping Out From Under You


If you want to read my beach yoga insights- cool! As always, I like to share my good, bad, and funny thoughts about stuff. I love yoga. BUT I like to keep it real. I have the words “Hold your ground” tattooed across my belly. Those are Gorilla Biscuits lyrics about being yourself even if it means you don’t find in with everyone. This post is about holding my ground physically in sand but also in terms of sharing this experience with people. I tried yoga on the beach this week in Mexico.

Practicing beach yoga for me was more uncomfortable than running in downtown Mexico City at 6am. This blog will always be more of the tone “This is what I’m up to. Here is what I’m learning and I want it to help you!” Rather than “Look at what I can do!”

As you can see- I am wearing a bathing suit! My personal practice I like to roll around in my sweatpants (more on that in a later blog), but yes I am a female who likes to wear a bathing suit at the beach! Actually, I’ll talk more about that later too! Cool!

Of course being a relatively shy, married, and personally conservative low-key person I had to decide whether or not it was something I wanted to post. I’m going with “yes.” For a few reasons. First, I just have a regular kind of athletic body and I’m not a stick. I don’t have a six pack. My spirit animal is a bowling ball. I like eating food. Secondly, it’s not like I’m in the studio wearing my bikini. That would be weird and I hate that idea.

Before I know it I’m in a weird freshly-dug grave-looking/sized hole. I don’t know why but I found this to be ironic and funny.

I have a brand new respect for people who can do inversions in the sand. Especially if it’s hot, and definitely if there are waves! That shit is hard to do! I can’t do a hand stand yet, and even holding down dog in the sand which tricky.

Inversions have kind of been on my to-do list beautiful so who knows. Maybe one summer I’ll have a handstand in the blue waves. Or not. Honestly who cares?

In all seriousness it was interesting to find foundation and stability when something is literally moving out from under me. Especially when I was also hot, uncomfortable, and the sun was starting to burn a little. Hold the pose, finish the sequence? Or say, “Fuck it I knew I’d hate this. Let me sit by the pool and run in the morning!”

That translates into life like most of the stuff on my mat. What subtle adjustments can you make when you feel unstable in your life? Whether it’s physical like changing your routine, or immediate like taking a deep breathe in a moment?

Sometimes a voice inside my head makes me feel corny like “What business do YOU have doing yoga and showing people? You’re not that bendy and you look weird. Don’t share those pictures keep your practice private.”

So physically yes it was hard to hold poses at the beach. Mentally it was challenging to stick to the idea that it was OK to share something like this with people. If you like doing something, or you’re trying something new or challenging – I say share it with people.

Running Goals Now that I’m Feeling Better- Hartford Half and (Oooh yeah!) NEW YORK CITY

I will be playing Andrew WK in my head for the next 5 months.


So I’ve had a few great runs! My fitness and speed aren’t what they were – but hopefully everything bounces back quickly.

Feels like coming back from hamstring is going to be 🔥🔥🔥! Thinking goal for hartford half 1:27. Goal for NYC maybe 3:10-3:15. I don’t believe this is an easy course but with enough prep, timing, recovery, rest- it’s doable. 22 week plan for NYC.

June first starts “real” training, a two week site seeing break in Scotland (mileage moderate no speed/intensity work or 12+ milers) another “off” week or two for trail Ragnar in August.

Mini taper for Hartford half marathon October and full three week taper for November. Have to account for getting very busy at school and peaking when shit starts to hit the fan at work.

I wrote 2 whole blogs about running in Mexico City and one of them disappeared and I’m pissed.

Have a good week!

Caught TWO friends to go out for a 14 mile Sunday long run in my favorite corner of CT. NOW WE ARE BASICALLY A RUN CLUB. My friend ran his longest run ever!

So far for run club names we got “Bad Decisions” and “Punishers.” I am taking suggestions for run club names! Brief summary of interests include: complaining about running then running anyway, procrastinating, trying not to die, killing/wasting time, beers (if you know me you know I like my recovery beers in the shower- can’t speak for them), dinner, tacos, Big Macs (that’s all Billy), dinner, punk bands.
I knew I had to go between 14-16 today, and Billy already ran a 12 so he was good for 14. I talk about Nate on a semi-regular basis because he’s been my running buddy for a while now- we trained together last year and ran the Ragnar together. He also used to own the first Crossfit I went to in Hartford- Nor’easter. Billy and his wife are my friends at Triton. After showing interest in my last few races, he signed up for the Providence marathon too! As did Nate. Billy hasn’t been doing long runs yet so he’s more optimistic about everything in general- even when he’s adjusting to the higher mileage which can be painful. Then again, I am adjusted and parts of the run are painful for me (attn: right thigh, right ankle, right IT band, right hammie.)
They are both full time workers and busy cool amazing dads- so understandably it can be hard to get a run in with three tight schedules. Even though running in the winter is aggravating as fuck (although it is better with some daylight now!) they’ve also both shown interest in really racing something maybe in the fall- and I believe they could both easily qualify for Boston if they have a good 18 week cycle with speed work and mid-tempos (almost impossible with ice and snow) and run a nice fall race.
So those are my current long-distance running friends this season! Long runs with friends are great because they go by faster. Another favorite past long-run was with Melanie and Alison from Alison’s house to the brewery when they were training for the Hamptons and I was training for Lehigh. Sometimes it’s nice to zone out to music or a podcast- but running adventures and joy really come with pals. I run better races when I do fun runs.
That being said, this course was literally a walk in multiple parks but it was definitely no walk in the park (haha.)  AND our conversational pace around multiple huge mountains with 2-3 climbs on it ended at 14 miles with 8:51/min mile pace. YEA!!
If you’ve been following my Instagram or my running journeys the past few years you’d also know I LOVE Hubbard park, Ragged Mountain, and the creepy forests, graveyards, farms, resevoirs, and orchards in between. SO many ghost stories and urban legends. Just last week Nate and I agreed that Hubbard park has the creepiest woods in the state. And he mountain biked all over the place for years so I feel like he’s a good validator of that statement. Maybe somewhere near Dudleytown is creepier. I’ll talk more about that some other day.

So this was our course. I was just so happy to not be running on the goddamn Farmington trail. I am SO sick of it. I have the whole freaking thing memorized from New Haven to Avon. I ran it ALL summer. 18 weeks. Just about every 12 miler and longer. That’s 3 times a week I would run various legs. Fuck. Anywhere between Skiff street in Hamden and the Southington dog park I could tell you which tree is what mile, how far we went, how fast we are going (without my phone), where the slight hills are, my favorite intersections, where I got hit by cars, point out the worst porta-potty in the state, you get the idea. That will also be discussed this summer I’m SURE.
SO I was having the time of my life site-seeing mountains, snow, trees, houses, birds, all those other things I mentioned. After I ran the 16 miler through New Haven before Austin and had a blast I knew mapping runs and site-seeing were parts of the journey that made running fun for me. Nate was NOT having a good time and getting stressed out because we were running on several main roads with kind of a lot of traffic. Also respectable. That being said I’ve been hit by TWO cars on the linear trail in crosswalks and ZERO times on the shoulders of highways. So there’s that. We’ll have to hash that out when the snow melts and the trails are acceptable.

Lastly- my friend Billy PR’d his running distance. He’d been growing as an athlete with normal marathon challenges- his shoes, running form, winter training in ice and darkness, transitioning from Crossfit, and now is the part where for the next 3-4 weeks he’s going to be running further then he’s ever ran before. That can be a lot. Every new season the first cycle of long runs seem impossible and I definitely remember my first 15 miler! All of them really. So here he is- victorious! We are watching Nate running longer because his Garmin was .2 miles short of our iPhones (haha but now Nate’s outnumbered so I don’t have to over run.) Now it is time for a recovery beer. 9 weeks til Providence!


Daylight Savings Will Save Me

….From going crazy soon. I want a full day of light and warmth. A lot of my social media stuff has been about working out lately. Working out is cool but what’s going inside everyone’s heads right about now? SPRRRRIIIINGGGGGG!!!!

Most of us tend to look inward during the winter. Me? I’m around people so often that once the days are short and cold you’d be hard pressed for me to respond to a text, let alone see me in person or catch me ready to hang out. Once March rolls through and the snow begins to melt (ahem, except when we have last minute nor’easters!), I feel happy and hopeful. My favorite seasons are May and June. Once that Justin Timberlake meme starts rolling through my social media I know it’s “GO” time again.

Daylight savings means spring is coming. I tend to wake up and move outward. Clean out my house (sort of), open the windows, and reconnect with anyone I may have neglected during the winter. Last spring I *really* tried to be the best person I could be- but hey shit happens. All the warm weather and yoga and running and sometimes we still lose our shit. Watching my dog slowly die for several months being one of them. Getting injured in Boston- and beginning my spring with a big rain cloud over my head. What will change this year?

As I turn a new leaf I want to make space to foster positive energy. My intention is that I think about things I like to do and what I’m passionate about- and do them with purpose, grace, and love. My hope is that everyone else can do that, too.

Austin Marathon: Small ones are good too (that’s what she said)- Running just for joy, tacos and ice cream, our snack bag was the worst/stupidest I’ve ever seen, and yes I will mention poop (don’t you know me by now?)

So I had a few mentally dark days two weeks back after getting nailed by that car. I’d also really been hating running after Chicago. I hated running before Chicago because I wanted to be fast so bad. I was listening to “Born to Run” on audible and some of the best ultra runners and regular runners to just ran out of joy and success comes later. That being said you can still be wrestling with exhaustion, persevering through physical fatigue, and have the mental capacity to remain happy and want to finish. Why did I do so well in Lehigh Valley last year? I had fun all summer! I ran with friends, I ran 50ish miles a week or less, I ran slowly, even my long runs were 8:40-9:30 min miles on average, and I did a TON of hot yoga. Then I hit 3:21 during race time. Chicago I ran my long runs 7:30 min miles ran 70 miles a week and kept having weird panic attack’s only to pull a hammie and work over a year for a 2 min PR. Whaaaaat.

So to get over my “fuck running” feelings and despite my coach’s disapproval I decided to run Austin for the joy of it. It wasn’t easy or perfect or fast, but I saw the city and some funny shit and burned off some tacos – left without injury. Ok cool!

So the race shirt was cool- sponsored by under armor the race was small-ish. On my instagram everyone seemed to have run Houston a few weeks prior – looks like that’s the Texas Mac daddy of marathons. Here’s the shirt

It’s probably the cutest slogan I’ve ever seen. “RUN RUN RUN”

Got there early and peed – the start line was cool. No pop music to start – we got “danger zone” and when it was time bright smoke shot from the top of the lights from big smoke machines – it was the coolest start to a race I’ve ever seen. Still pretty dark out when we started off.

OK so the problem of my GI stems from how this was a “fun” race. Yes my period flow was on uncomfortably heavy, yes I was wishy washy about the race since I signed up for it. Yes because this was a fun race I didn’t go by my normal three day carb only plan. The night before I had an omelette and vegan ice cream even though I knew damn well I should have bagels with jelly or pizza w no cheese like Chicago or a burrito w rice and beans maybe some tofu like Lehigh. But no. My dumbass went in on adding extra avocado and vegan chocolate ice cream named after a metal band or whatever. It was damn good too.

So was I shocked I had to stop at EVERY porta potty the next 11 miles!? Eh before I realized what I’d done- yeah I guess – but I knew better and I just didn’t bother. Luckily I ran first few miles a little fast so they were still clean when I got to them.

Austin tx looks a lot like Bridgeport. I saw a few guys running shoeless and a girl w a Daria tattoo.

I almost dropped out because of my GI issues – thinking I’d finish the half and even if I didn’t get a medal it would be done and thinking how lucky the half marathoners were.

Then not to sound corny but then I started thinking about being happy again, my stomach was pretty much done being disagreeable, and maybe I was the lucky was because I had a chance to see the WHOLE city not just the south and west. I was capable to have a diff opportunity than them and all I had to do was keep it moving. So I did and ended up with an extremely fun and surprisingly comfortable last 13 miles. The times weren’t my best but it was first marathon that I had negative splits.

The only thing I hated was the snack bag. I couldn’t get a freaking banana?? Weird Cheetos Oreos and a fruit cup ? Straight to garbage. The end.

I have tons of shit to write about but I’m going to vent about how much I love carbs instead

7 days til Austin Marathon! Carb depletion day 1 (actually like 14 hours and I’m already angry.) Never actually carb depleted before a load – I just perpetually carb load.

Normally when I get breakfast with Dre I eat French toast and her toast and all our hash browns. I told her I was carb depleting at the gym and during the 20 minutes it took to get to breakfast I had changed my mind was ready to go in on some hash browns !! I am weak! Today when she was a good friend and told me “no toast” I almost flipped a table I called her a bitch and ordered my omelette with (some) fruit. Usually I give up on depletes but I figured if I use this as a platform maybe I’ll stick with it but I’ll tell you if I don’t. It’s only four days after all!!

On Thursday I get to start the carb load and that’s the fun part!! I wish I didn’t have extreme behaviors. Why couldn’t I run the 5k in Austin and eat a reasonable amount of tacos? Have to fucking run the full marathon and eat tacos til I bust like an asshole. Feeling good about my 20 yesterday “- but full disclosure- my coach told me not to. Steve said today “You know what I do to my athletes who don’t listen to me? I punish them.” Lol so when I come back (INJURY FREE!) from Austin I can expect training for Providence to be especially long and grueling aka fun and lovely. I pinky swore him I’d just jog this marathon and I will bring sharpies to write “don’t be an asshole” and “biiiiig picture” on my hands. It’s just the marathon of 100 tacos.

Ok I’m gonna go eat another fucking cheese stick and try not to punch anyone in the face for the next three days. #ilovecarbs #carbiebarbie #fuckrawonions #marathontraining #austinmarathon #feedme #food #carbs #paleo #girlsthatrun #breakfast #ilovebreakfast #running #runningadventures